Current mood:	sad
Current music:	i dont even kno

i feel like dying
so yea my subject thing pretty much says it all....i feel like dying....sam called me tonight...drunk...telling me to fuck off that im a fuckin cunt..i should die ..she hates me never wants to talk to me again....i kno she is drunk...but that had to be the most painfull thing i have ever expirenced.....i mean i kno she is drunk but omg this was the most painfull thing ive ever felt....and no one else can understand because they arent in my shoes
and the worst part is she ...even if she does talk to me ever again....she might not even feel bad,.....thats like the impression i get now that this happend...that she just doesnt care about my feelings anymore

ive lost my best friend and it seriously is the worst feeling in the world....this is worse then breaking up....i dont even kno how to feel or what to do anymore...but i mean she had all day to call and she called when drunk....we are going through a break up..and i mean if this is all its gonna be...her calling me drunk....then i dont want it. and i kno that is harsh but omg i it hurts soooooooooooooooo bad.....its like ive been torn to shreds and there is nothing left


im gonna go.......see wuts next for me....